transparent hot sugar (drawn with endless love, by me)

miss u 

so i played a lot of things at sxsw and most of them were just obligatory things that were full of people that probably didn’t know me and were mostly there to be photographed at ~the nylon party~ ~the hype hotel~ ~the whatever thing~ and it grossed me out a lot

i was feeling really bad about the whole deal because it just seemed like a giant social climbing fest where everyone just wanted to meet famous people, even if they had no idea why they were “famous” 

the last night of sxsw, hot sugar had a show to play and when we mapped it out it was far as fuck and we had to take a cab there and it ended up being in this seedy looking bar outside of downtown austin and i was admittedly kinda nervous that i would be stuck here instead of going to the justin timberlake show that myspace had put me on VIP for so i could be near justin. i wasn’t even playing this showcase so i was like fuck fuck should i stay should i go what should i do???

i decided to just stay because i knew the myspace party would be 2 crazy and what kind of dickhead leaves their love at a faraway bar to try and squeeze through a crowd to be close to justin timberlake??? 

i’d played 3 long sets already this day, and my voice was so fucked that when i went to get m&ms, the guy ringing them up heard me try to say thank you and said “shhh……dont say anything, it’ll all be over soon” which was hilarious but also made me sad

even though there weren’t a ton of people at this party, everyone there was so nice and generous and happy to be there and happy to be together and beautiful lou and western tink and kool ad and weekend money and chippy and hot sugar and amber london all played and for the first time all week, my friends got to hang out and have fun together and everyone was just excited to be with each other. i wasn’t supposed to play at all but ghostpizza wanted me to do a song to close out the night and he didn’t have the instrumental but it was cool because i would have just been squeaking softly over it anyway

so i did stupid ass okay cupid (a song i NEVER WANT 2 HEAR AGAIN AFTER PLAYING IT SO MANY TIMES but i feeel bad saying that because ew think about like britney spears and how many times she has had to perform oops i did it again???? so really i have nothing to whine about AT ALL) and it was the most fun ive had playing a song in a long time and here is the shitty video 

but hopefully you guys can tell how much fun everyone at the party was having

i love my friends so much